No, I am not speaking about material, external freedom. For a long time, in my mind the word freedom equalled having plenty of money and not having to grind a 9-5 slave job. Once I had achieved that, I started to understand that true freedom includes much more – being free from all cravings, and maintaining peace of mind. I was a slave of my own ego and its addictions for many, many years. For most of those years I wanted to free myself, but I had no clue of how to get there. Whenever I tried to get rid of an addiction with force I soon replaced it with another addiction or simply fell back into the same patterns again.

This time it’s different, I can feel it already. First of all, I now have very strong motives for breaking free – motives of power, not force. Secondly, my will to do this is stronger than ever before, it grew out of increased frustration and the recognition of what really matters at this point in my life. So I decided this week that yesterday (Saturday) is the day that I want to be free, go cold turkey, at least for a day. For me this means no cigarettes, no marijuana, no alcohol and no coffee. It’s quite hard but I am extremely happy and proud that I made it yesterday. To some of you it may seem like a small step but to me this is a huuuuge step.

My ego works in a way that whenever I used to formulate a resolution like “I want to stop smoking cigarettes completely” or “I want smoke no marihuana for a month” it would go totally crazy and drive me nuts becasue it hates that kind of pressure coupled with a medium to long term outlook of having to do without an established habit. That’s why I’m using “free for a day” as my goal, there’s no pressure for more than a day this way. But of course I can always add another day

Archangel Michael gave me the idea when he said to me “Just try for ONE day, you’ve given your ego years!” And on Friday I found a good German website about breaking free from marihuana, I had a great laugh when I saw their slogan “Grasfrei – nur fuer heute!”, it literally means “Free from grass – only for today!”

I’ll document the process I am going through further on this blog. For now, all that counts for me is “free for another day”!

These are tips for effectively clearing clutter that I find helpful:

1. Get rid of it instantly! Clutter cannot accumulate if it’s taken care of immediately. Recycle, donate or throw away every object instantly that you don’t really need or want in your life.
2. Simplicity is beauty! In our western lifestyles we tend to accumulate so many things that we don’t really need. Leading interior designers and architects show us how beautiful simplicity is. Simplify your life and your space!
3. Does it make your heart sing? According to a famous quote by William Morris we should only keep in our house what is either useful or beautiful. If you have a hard time deciding if you really want to keep something just ask yourself “does it make my heart sing”? If your honest answer is no, get rid of it. This is one of several great tips I found at the Calm Space.
4. Step by step! When clearing the space around you it doesn’t matter where you start, just take one step at a time. Completely de-clutter one drawer, one cupboard, one room at a time, then move on.
5. Don’t forget the invisible clutter! Unfinished business, projects and relationships cause visible and also invisible clutter in the form of stuck energy. There’s also invisible internal clutter that comes from negative thoughts, memories, emotions, and from other people that drag you down energetically. Become award of the invisible clutter in your life and get rid of it, too!

Clutter tends to never stop accumulating, like dust on the shelves. Thus, clearing it is a never-ending process that I have struggled with for a long time. When I was 17 I had my first own one-room apartment, after a year or so it was filled to the max with clutter. I disliked all cleaning chores and it took strong concerted efforts with the help of good friends to get rid of all that clutter again, some of it stayed with me for many more years. It’s time now to embrace the chore of continuously clearing clutter, and to get rid of all remaining clutter in my life. It may take a while – the more I clear the more I realize there is – but I’ll get it done!

Energetically I feel the accumulated clutter like a darkish weight on my feet that drains me and restricts my movements. Not a nice feeling, that’s why it feels so good getting rid of it. I literally feel much lighter, like having lost many kilos, after dumping a carload of accumulated garbage or deleting tens of thousands of unwanted emails from my inbox.

During my “dark” ego-driven phases I have procrastrinated everything and anything to the max, making a habit of not dealing with any of the issues in my personal life unless I was really, really forced to. This behavior pattern was supported and strengthened by my chronic addiction to marihuana, and some other addictions. I was usually too stoned to care. I was stoned for almost all of the last 26 years, again only interrupted by brief periods of trying to kick the habit.

In spite of that I have had a “successful” carreer, I am enjoying financial freedom and I have a wonderful wife and two beautiful souls that have come to us as our kids in this life journey. But there was always that emptiness, there was always that inner voice telling me that I have a purpose to fulfill, that like all of us I am a being of eternal light that has come to Earth, that my mission lies ahead of me once I will get ready…

Whenever I put energy into something I tend to do well, I made good money with several of my endeavours. This fed my ego and my pride, only serving to dig me deeper into my tunnels. For many years I was like a misguided ship, going full blast ahead on various projects and experiments, but never arriving anywhere because I did not really know where I wanted to go.

The year 2009 and the first few days of January 2010 were filled with a few more such misguided, materialistic projects. The feeling of emptiness grew ever stronger, and towards the end of the first week of January I suddenly felt a strong interest in a book that my wife had bought in December, “Power vs Force” by David R. Hawkins. I started reading it, then one evening my wife and I had a powerful psychic channeling session (we have been doing these sessions off and on for years, usually with the help of a Ouija board) during which Archangel Michael reminded me in very clear words about my ego-driven state. He showed me how I was constantly applying force instead of power, and how these recent projects were doomed to fail rather sooner than later. I was shaken and stirred up inside, but I recognized the Truth in His words and the scales slowly started to fall from my eyes!

Since then I have finished reading Hawkins’ book, it helped to tie up a few loose ends in my mind. My mind my wife and I have started to apply his method of kinesiology for calibrations on his hierarchy of levels of consciousness. I was quite shocked to learn that my own current level of consciousness (in my usual stoned state) calibrates at the low level of 90 – the level of grief, right below the level of fear. Michael has explained to me in subsequent sessions where this grief and my fears come from, and I start to realize how I can let go of them. Since last week I have been meditating every day, cleaning my aura, activating my chakras and reconnecting with my source. This helps me to better distinguish my ego voice from my other inner voices – I have finally started to follow my inner guidance much more consequently.

I will document the process of my inner evolution on this blog, writing it is also a part of the process for me. The words “quantum leap 2010″ came to me strongly during a recent meditation, I feel that the time is right for me to leap ahead into the unknown, and to move ahead in my personal development. I want to raise my level of consciousness to at least 500, the level of love. I want to free myself from all my addictions and from all other ego-driven behavior patterns. I want to cleanse my body, my mind and my spirit. I want to lead a happy, healthy and honest life of spiritual integrity, serving the common good in a meaningful and efficient way.

I want to align myself purely with the highest attractor patterns of love, joy, compassion and grace. I want to surrender my ego. I want to surrender completely to the will of God. I want to fulfill my Divine Mission of this lifetime. Last but not least I want to be a loving father and an inspiring example for my kids, as well as a wonderful loving husband for my wife – together we make our dreams come true.

All of this and much more is part of my quantum leap. This blog may help me to connect with other, likeminded souls who go through similar processes. Are you ready for, or in the middle of a personal quantum leap? Let’s do it, the time is NOW!