What quantum leap, why a quantum leap?

I am 41 years old, my life until now can be described as several very long phases of ego- and materialistically-driven activities, interrupted by brief periods of spiritual awareness and awakening. I have known for a long time what steps I want (and need) to climb in my personal evolution, and I have always felt that a wonderful path lies ahead of me once I do climb them – but I was a master of procrastination.

During my “dark” ego-driven phases I have procrastrinated everything and anything to the max, making a habit of not dealing with any of the issues in my personal life unless I was really, really forced to. This behavior pattern was supported and strengthened by my chronic addiction to marihuana, and some other addictions. I was usually too stoned to care. I was stoned for almost all of the last 26 years, again only interrupted by brief periods of trying to kick the habit.

In spite of that I have had a “successful” carreer, I am enjoying financial freedom and I have a wonderful wife and two beautiful souls that have come to us as our kids in this life journey. But there was always that emptiness, there was always that inner voice telling me that I have a purpose to fulfill, that like all of us I am a being of eternal light that has come to Earth, that my mission lies ahead of me once I will get ready…

Whenever I put energy into something I tend to do well, I made good money with several of my endeavours. This fed my ego and my pride, only serving to dig me deeper into my tunnels. For many years I was like a misguided ship, going full blast ahead on various projects and experiments, but never arriving anywhere because I did not really know where I wanted to go.

The year 2009 and the first few days of January 2010 were filled with a few more such misguided, materialistic projects. The feeling of emptiness grew ever stronger, and towards the end of the first week of January I suddenly felt a strong interest in a book that my wife had bought in December, “Power vs Force” by David R. Hawkins. I started reading it, then one evening my wife and I had a powerful psychic channeling session (we have been doing these sessions off and on for years, usually with the help of a Ouija board) during which Archangel Michael reminded me in very clear words about my ego-driven state. He showed me how I was constantly applying force instead of power, and how these recent projects were doomed to fail rather sooner than later. I was shaken and stirred up inside, but I recognized the Truth in His words and the scales slowly started to fall from my eyes!

Since then I have finished reading Hawkins’ book, it helped to tie up a few loose ends in my mind. My mind my wife and I have started to apply his method of kinesiology for calibrations on his hierarchy of levels of consciousness. I was quite shocked to learn that my own current level of consciousness (in my usual stoned state) calibrates at the low level of 90 – the level of grief, right below the level of fear. Michael has explained to me in subsequent sessions where this grief and my fears come from, and I start to realize how I can let go of them. Since last week I have been meditating every day, cleaning my aura, activating my chakras and reconnecting with my source. This helps me to better distinguish my ego voice from my other inner voices – I have finally started to follow my inner guidance much more consequently.

I will document the process of my inner evolution on this blog, writing it is also a part of the process for me. The words “quantum leap 2010″ came to me strongly during a recent meditation, I feel that the time is right for me to leap ahead into the unknown, and to move ahead in my personal development. I want to raise my level of consciousness to at least 500, the level of love. I want to free myself from all my addictions and from all other ego-driven behavior patterns. I want to cleanse my body, my mind and my spirit. I want to lead a happy, healthy and honest life of spiritual integrity, serving the common good in a meaningful and efficient way.

I want to align myself purely with the highest attractor patterns of love, joy, compassion and grace. I want to surrender my ego. I want to surrender completely to the will of God. I want to fulfill my Divine Mission of this lifetime. Last but not least I want to be a loving father and an inspiring example for my kids, as well as a wonderful loving husband for my wife – together we make our dreams come true.

All of this and much more is part of my quantum leap. This blog may help me to connect with other, likeminded souls who go through similar processes. Are you ready for, or in the middle of a personal quantum leap? Let’s do it, the time is NOW!